Summer

I
am
Exhausted. This summer has been hell. Yes hell. Honey Bee I know you do better with sunshine but me? I am better at being in gloomy weather that consists of a hint of grey and moisture in the air.  This summer has also been a challenging one. I use to pray for patience not thinking about God actually challenging me to build said patience.  Let me start from the beginning.
      I have become ungrateful little punk. I could no longer ride my bike due to unlivable heat...ok ok im over exaggerating but if you knew me you would understand. I was doing so good eating less and losing weight. So I had to go back to being driven to and from work. Earlier in the year we were told our air conditioner in our Mazda had to be fixed and it was going to cost about 1K. Great. Just what I needed to hear. My husband saw how miserable I was. When i'm hot i'm a crabby patty. So he went to an auto parts store and bought some magical thing that I don't know what it was called. But its only cost us 20 bucks and boom A/C is working! Things are looking up right? 5 minutes of happiness gone. As we are driving home from a family reunion the Mazda blew a rod..............................................................face palm.  We had to scrap the car. Toms brothers girlfriend had a nice little Honda and sold it to us for 3k and let us make payments each month. A week later a screw comes loose and falls into the engine. God? are you their? I need you. I am drowning. It was hard borrowing cars and finding rides. My parents had developed some sort of attitude towards us. Making me feel as tho I have over stayed my welcome. Then one day my dad says he would like to help us find a car. Excited! we went to test drive cars and vans and suv's. I fell for the first van we drove. Unfortunately it did not drive smoothly. The next few had no comparison. Finally went to Honda. The guy was super aggressive and over confident.  We wanted prices first but he said lets talk about that later lets fall in love with the car first. Hey Zach, bed idea. We first told him our price range and he made it sound like it was possible. So I fell....hard for a 2014 Hyundai empala. Dark grey, interior black leather, tinted windows and a moon roof....so we brought my dad over the next day. He had no interest in seeing the car he wanted numbers. Being the hard ass he is Zach became a bit nervous. Nothing he did was impressive, I promise. My dad told him what we can do but they couldn't give me what we wanted. They kept asking well what do you want. Really? we told you. You even wrote it down! and your still asking??? We had to walk away. Next day we my dad decided he didn't want to really help us anymore. Life was looking hopeless. No one seemed to understand this was stressful. I fell in and out of depression.  So just to humor me my husband took me to another car place. Boom in love with a Toyota Prius 2013 hybrid. But I gave myself a pep talk not to get my hopes up. I had to go back to work anyways. To make this already long story shorter. We got the car. By ourselves. with payments we could afford. 
   Toms brother finally did it. He took the plunge after 5 tries with this woman. They finally tied the knot. I am so happy for them. Even tho rumors were saying she never wanted to meet me we met. So far shes been pleasant. We even went to the beach with them to play pokemon go. As August finally is getting on its way life seems a bit better. My weekends are busy and my car has A/C. I am as happy as this summer will let me 

Lemon D

Tired

I am tired, drained, fustrated.
My family can be over sensitive.
My sister for starters. Oh boy where should I start. She has issuses!
She blames my mom for everything wrong with her and her life and talks bad about her as soon as the chance is given!
Lazy, sleeps all day and is obsessed with a online game called second life.

My mom, i love her to the moon and back. But I know im not her favorite and I will never be. Not only do I know but sometimes she makes it known. I do everything she asks no problem. But the one time i got upset about watching my uncle once! she got all hurt about it and became a drama queen. I apologised right away but she drug it out.

Last night we had to put my kittty down (the one who lived at the office) was so sad. Yes i sobbed tremendously! He started having tremors and had unexpected aggression , drooling and panting. His blood work was perfect. I wish I knew what was wrong so we could have helped him. I miss him so much already.

On a brighter note! Tomorrow is a semi family reunion! My cousin is having a baby shower and I am getting my lazy ass up and going!!!

 

Homemade Mini Pizzas

Cresent rolls opened and layed out in triangles.
Spagetti sause spread on the triangle cresent roll dough
Top with cheese, olives, mushrooms, and pepperoni

VERY YUMMY!  Simple and something the kids can help with too.

~honeybee *buzz*

CAN you all just SEE?

It has offically begun.  My son has gotten in trouble at school for saying some verbally mean things to another boy in his gym class and was sent to the principals office. 

I am frustrated and disappointed.  I am angry and sad.  I have spent the last 24 hours crying, talking about my feelings with friends, and family.  Nothing seems to make me feel better. And just to make myself clear, I am not having all these feels towards my son's behavior but rather with how the teachers have dealt with the situations.

Flashbacks of what kindergarten was like has sweep through  my mind and all I want to do is scream at the teachers at school and the principal about  my frustrations.  No one seems to respect my son's boundries. Instead of giving him what he is seeking in each classroom setting, the adults that are responsible to teach him refuse to help. I am the one  they punish by calling me into thier offices and pointing out that he is not getting along with a certain child in class. 

I feel the need to stand up for my son, be his advicate and explain to others that he has "space/boundries" issues. He does not like to be touched by some people.  He diserves to be heard and others should respect his boundires.   Yet no one at school seems to see that.

I wish that others could just see that he is not doing the things he does because he wants attention or to truely be mean.  He does and says the things he does because he feels no one hears him or reads his body language about how he feels about certain students in classes.  I know for a fact that there is other students in his classes that have issues of physical boundries and have been all over my son rough housing and yet after being told or reminded are not sent to the principal's office for their behavior.  And I also know that my son can play nicely with other kids, yet there is a few in each class that he has a hard time sitting next to or being required to play with.  I just wish that the teachers would be sensitive to my son's needs like they are of others, and allow him the opportunity to not be paired up with these other kids.

When you have a child that is labled a bully it is just as hard as the parent of the child that is being bulled.  Specially if your son has developmental issues for his behavior.  And the school is not willing to help him succeed.

~HoneyBee

Baby Showers

My good friend who watches my kids a lot, is pregnate with her 4th child.  She is having another boy.  Some of our friends planned a Baby Shower for her today.  Yummy food was served.  There is one lady who seriously is the best cook I have ever met, and every thing she makes tastes soooo yummy.  SERIOUSLY Yummy food.  Today's Baby Shower was over the top with treats.  She made these things called Meltaways.  SOOOOO FREAkING good!

Check out this Blog that shared a receipe! I Sooooo need to make these for myself...and not share them with anyone!

~Honeybee *Buzz*